So - my brain is like a town that is constantly hit by a tornado.
I have named this tornado - Mr. Stupid.
The minute that town thinks the storm is over and foundations are made, Mr. Stupid shows up again, making it SO difficult to make any decisions what so ever.
So yesterday afternoon, I looked in the mirror - at my forehead and had a chat with that tornado that is hell bent on ruining my life.
I said 'hey! Mr. Stupid! FUCK YOU! I AM going to make decisions! Big decisions! Yea, and not only decisions, I am going to give myself OPTIONS! And feasible, happenable options. HA!'
In response that tornado said 'Yea right! And...fuck you back!'.
Anyway - I ignored Mr. Stupid. Well for the sole reason that he is stupid.
And I made decisions.
And I am acting on them.
Starting today - because its prep day.
Tomorrow is the 1st of October. The outcome of all this decision making shall be reviewed again - on December 1st. Exactly 2 months.
And then what happens? - You are going to have to wait to find out depending on how I have done!
Decision #1
This is an old one.
So old and used and blah that I can imagine the amount of eye rolls this one will earn.
Weight loss. *eye roll*
Now, I know I have said this before. But this time I am going to do it. Because Mr. Stupid is NOT going to mess with me and make me change my mind. I am re-starting the whole regime I was on 2 years ago when I lost all that weight. I'm off carbs will the 1st of December. I will keep blogging the progress of that week after week.
Just because, you know...you would like to have a laugh!
Decision #2
This is SORT of linked to the 1st decision. Now that I have said no carbs, its NOT REALLY no carbs. Because as much as I want to say I don't want to drink at all, that would be a lie! A big fat stupid one. A slightly more stupid one that Mr. Stupid! And since I have been told this over and over by different people, there is going to be ONE standard drink that I drink - lowest on carbs and calories apparently...Vodka-soda-limes (yuck) and no more beer (SOB!).
Decision #3
This pitiful being jobless situation. I am SO SICK of people telling me 'look at the world, this is a global thing, its not only you, change your field, you can do SO MANY THINGS while you don't have a job, look to the stars and the effin silver linings...'. You get the gist right? So again, I have given myself -till November to get a job. Once that doesn't happen, the back up plan kicks in. What is the back up plan? - Well that I'm not a 100% sure of yet, but I'll let you know once it is figured out.
Decision #4
Do what I want to do - when I want to do it. If there is something I want to be, then that is what I will be. If there is some music I want to listen to - I will listen to it. If there is something I want to wear, I will wear it and if there is some place I want to go - I will go. Nobody is going to change my mind.
Decision #5
No matter WHAT happens, what other life altering decisions I make, I am going to plan the WHOLE month of December around one thing - the Backstreet Boys concert. Yes people, they are playing in Dubai in December.
Now for all of you who are all on about 'Oh for the love of all that's holy' and all that, its about time you admitted to yourself - they are awesome.
Also, I have been waiting to go to a concert of theirs since I was 10 years old. They are coming here and there is noway I am going to miss it!
So there - I feel...pretty OK, which is awesome improvement from, the 'pretty shit' level I was at earlier. Not only have I made 5 decisions, I might also get to see the backstreet boys live (given they don't cancel) and Mr. Stupid has been fired!
Tada!
Xx
here comes the bride...
Friday, August 21, 2009
So. I know I have not had anything to say in a long time. That is maybe because I have too much stuff in my brain. All un-sorted!But anyway - this is definately worth the break of silence or whatever it is you call it.
My sister and her boo (the oh-so amazing aaron brownlee) are engaged to be married!
And I am in full prep to becoming the best saali anyone could ask for! :)
Heres to the two of them...God bless Xx.
Love aaj kal.
Sunday, August 2, 2009
So I am going through another difficult point in my life. So what else is new huh? Growing up I tell you - I'm not a fan!
Anyway, so I thought - I haven't seen a proper bollywood movie in so long and a nice chick flick type love story would be nice. And bollywood, more or less always, cheers me up. So we went to watch the movie.
I was just about 3 seconds from slitting my wrists at the end of it.
As in?
Well, as in, if the movie was even 3 seconds longer, I would have slit my wrists.
Yes, I really did think it was that bad.
I mean, I even read the review on indiafm before I went, which went on to say that 'LOVE AAJ KAL makes you fall in love with love all over again. Makes you value your loved ones all the more.' Yes, that last bit I did agree with. Because I was going to die watching that movie - and if that was the case - I would not have the chance to tell my loved ones that I loved them!
What was wrong? - Well the story of the present day love story was the most insane! And Saif Ali Khan should just NOT dance. And Deepika Padukone (or whatever her name is) can't act and should give it up. And the list goes on.
Initially, I thought I was the only one who had something that horrible to say about the movie but, the faces of all the people leaving the theatre yesterday said it all. I think they were all very angry and wanted their money back.
So yes, please don't watch it loved ones! And if you do want to, wait till it comes out on DVD and watch it on a day where you have NOTHING else to do. Like NOTHING.
Ta. Xx.
Anyway, so I thought - I haven't seen a proper bollywood movie in so long and a nice chick flick type love story would be nice. And bollywood, more or less always, cheers me up. So we went to watch the movie.
I was just about 3 seconds from slitting my wrists at the end of it.
As in?
Well, as in, if the movie was even 3 seconds longer, I would have slit my wrists.
Yes, I really did think it was that bad.
I mean, I even read the review on indiafm before I went, which went on to say that 'LOVE AAJ KAL makes you fall in love with love all over again. Makes you value your loved ones all the more.' Yes, that last bit I did agree with. Because I was going to die watching that movie - and if that was the case - I would not have the chance to tell my loved ones that I loved them!
What was wrong? - Well the story of the present day love story was the most insane! And Saif Ali Khan should just NOT dance. And Deepika Padukone (or whatever her name is) can't act and should give it up. And the list goes on.
Initially, I thought I was the only one who had something that horrible to say about the movie but, the faces of all the people leaving the theatre yesterday said it all. I think they were all very angry and wanted their money back.
So yes, please don't watch it loved ones! And if you do want to, wait till it comes out on DVD and watch it on a day where you have NOTHING else to do. Like NOTHING.
Ta. Xx.
Missing Mankato.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
I miss...
Kakes's big hugs and sloppy kisses. Doha's laugh and high pitched girl scream. Waqas's guitar. Ambers gazillion pictures. Korrie's straight face when she would say we were twins. Pari's 'yea, I don't think so' looks. T's sensible responses to everything. Sachin's undrinkably hot coffee or tea or whatever - what is with that? Khumar's 'kareeeeeshma'. Maria's omg's and nasty's. Umair's dancing. Ali's high notes. Sarmad's "bc's". Jen and Liz'z red wine pasta. And so much more.
I could go on and on by saying, remember that time?...
but it would take too long.
Everyone I mentioned, some of you I was close to and some not really. Some I talk to and some - well I don't even know where they are.
But I just want to say that I am so happy I know you because you did bring nothing but happy memories.
And whenever I look back at my 5 years in Minnesota, you are who I think of.
Thank you for the best, worst and most craziest 5 years of my life.
In strange and different ways, I love you all.
Xx.
Kakes's big hugs and sloppy kisses. Doha's laugh and high pitched girl scream. Waqas's guitar. Ambers gazillion pictures. Korrie's straight face when she would say we were twins. Pari's 'yea, I don't think so' looks. T's sensible responses to everything. Sachin's undrinkably hot coffee or tea or whatever - what is with that? Khumar's 'kareeeeeshma'. Maria's omg's and nasty's. Umair's dancing. Ali's high notes. Sarmad's "bc's". Jen and Liz'z red wine pasta. And so much more.
I could go on and on by saying, remember that time?...
but it would take too long.
Everyone I mentioned, some of you I was close to and some not really. Some I talk to and some - well I don't even know where they are.
But I just want to say that I am so happy I know you because you did bring nothing but happy memories.
And whenever I look back at my 5 years in Minnesota, you are who I think of.
Thank you for the best, worst and most craziest 5 years of my life.
In strange and different ways, I love you all.
Xx.
Michael Jackson - R.I.P
Friday, June 26, 2009
I can't beleive it. But everyone seems to assure me that it's true.
So all I want to say is -
Michael Jackson, you were and will always remain a legend. Thank you for all the memories.
Xx.
When life gives you lemons...
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
"When life gives you lemons, make grape juice.
Then sit back and watch the world try to figure out how you did it."
finally - a sensible answer!
Thursday, June 18, 2009
So. A friend of mine and I were just talking, over facebook, about how many people we know are getting married or engaged or something, in this year to come. Well congratulations to them!
But it sucks for us. You know, the remainder of us. Us who are not even close to think that we might want to get engaged - let alone married.
Because living in the Indian society when you are a 24 year or older girl and not married - there can only be three explanations -
1) There is something wrong with you. This could mean appearance.
2) There is something wrong with you. Which basically means you are a lesbian.
3) There is something wrong with your history, hence no respectable Indian family would want their respectable son to marry you.
And I am sorry but screw that! I don't buy all of that. You don't need to get married just to prove all of the above wrong. Take your time. Build your career. Live your life and then marry because you want to. Because they are your best friend and you are ready for that next great adventure. Not because you are worried about what people will say about your family.
Now, strangely enough, quite a few modern day Indian kids feel the way I do. But they are still getting married left right and center. And that was when I sort of ran out of theories. And then the friend I was talking to, came up with a brilliant one. I really believe this.
Conclusive theory:
It's global warming. People are trying to pair up before the polar ice caps melt and we all drown.
Xx.
But it sucks for us. You know, the remainder of us. Us who are not even close to think that we might want to get engaged - let alone married.
Because living in the Indian society when you are a 24 year or older girl and not married - there can only be three explanations -
1) There is something wrong with you. This could mean appearance.
2) There is something wrong with you. Which basically means you are a lesbian.
3) There is something wrong with your history, hence no respectable Indian family would want their respectable son to marry you.
And I am sorry but screw that! I don't buy all of that. You don't need to get married just to prove all of the above wrong. Take your time. Build your career. Live your life and then marry because you want to. Because they are your best friend and you are ready for that next great adventure. Not because you are worried about what people will say about your family.
Now, strangely enough, quite a few modern day Indian kids feel the way I do. But they are still getting married left right and center. And that was when I sort of ran out of theories. And then the friend I was talking to, came up with a brilliant one. I really believe this.
Conclusive theory:
It's global warming. People are trying to pair up before the polar ice caps melt and we all drown.
Xx.
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