no such thing.

"I want to run through the halls of my high school
I want to scream at the top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above"

Xx.

random conversations #1

scene: nancy, nadia and i are sitting in the food court at lamcy plaza. we decided to meet there because nance just got back from a super trip (and it was super). she went to goa for a wedding. anyway, we are talking about weddings, and unfortunate arranged marriage situations, yada yada - when i just turned to ask her how the arranged marriage thing was going at her home, as her parents have sort of started putting the pressure. it sort of went like this -

nams: so hows it going with the marriage thing at home?
nancy: hmm...ok
nams: any good prospects?
nancy: (looking into the distance) no. i want chicken nuggets. and oh - i met vishal while i was in mumbai.
nams: *expression of utter confusion*
nadia: (1-2-3-nadia laugh)

it was funny at the time.
but based on the above conversation, i now pass the crown of randomness to you nance.Xx.

absolute nothings.

downside - it sucks that the first time i actually spoke with the boo's family, it was under such horribly stressful circumstances. upside - it now provides as an ice breaker. when i actually have to meet with them or speak with them again, it will be SO easy to start a conversation. downside - its weird with me sometimes - i love a song SO MUCH. as in the tune and the music. but i hate the singer and the style it has been sung in. upside - i can pray that somebody will make a decent cover of the song. if it becomes popular enough. upside - my mom bought me new clothes from Bangkok. downside - some of them don't fit me because i have gotten so fat. upside - i have ANOTHER reason to loose weight. (because the first 63 reasons were obviously not reason enough!) downside - certain friends parents are pushing them for marriage. you know, the arranged sort. upside - another reason to loose weight. shopping for fun 'shaadi type' indian clothing and dancing for the weddings. downside - no work. upside - umm. i still have to figure this one. upside - i got new shoes from bangkok too. well one pair of flats and some flip flops. downside - NONE. i'm sorry - there never is a downside to new shoes. downside - i think i am loosing my memory a little which sucks because among us girls, i am the one who always remembers everything! so i have been trying and trying and i can't remember when su-che and i became such close friends. upside - i'm glad that we did because he is one person there needs to be nothing to talk about but we still can. downside - i can't help but feel down these days. demotivated. like i am doing absolutely nothing with my life. upside - the Siva Purana. Xx.

when you think you have seen everything...

'They' come up with something like this!
(i just heard about this. Well, i read about it on facebook)


bling H2O
"a water for the super-luxury consumer market and is produced in limited quantities. The beautiful handmade bottle is decorated with real Swarovski Crystals..."

Right. Well. You have GOT to be f*****g kidding me.

However, i will say this, i would like one bottle - just for fun! how much do you think one costs?

yeh hai mumbai meri jaan!

i needed to get out of dubai for a little bit. to miss it. to appreciate it. to not hate is so much. a little breath of fresh air - well in this case, not fresh but new. to get away from the streets and the people and the decision making!
so i took a little 'on the spur of the moment' trip. to mumbai. after 10 long years, i went.
it was an awesome trip!

all the way on the flight, i was a little iffy, weird butterflies in my tummy. not the looking at your high school crush at lunch time type of butterflies, but a different type. i cant explain them. i think it was just because i got so much advice, from so many people before going - i didn't know what to expect. you know, the usual - 'don't forget your sanitizer' and 'roadside ka khaana math khana' (translation - don't eat food that is sold on the street side). don't drink water at anybodys house because you don't know if it is bottled or not, don't touch ANYTHING, don't give money to even ONE beggar - you give one and you give all, don't look into the eyes of chakkas, and the list goes on and on.
when you hear all of that, you don't really know what to expect.

so i expected the worst. but i found i really enjoyed it.

i thought people would stare if you , but i found that i wound up staring. people there dared to dress similar to each other and and dared to be different. they talk loud and not care. bindaas! -that's the word. and more than anything else - its a city. and like all big cities, people live for themselves. and that is so important. to try and do that. do things you want to do and flick a finger at the world. and its fast. very fast. time flies there.


i mean, don't get me wrong, it is a mad, mad city. there is pollution, it was bloody hot and not everywhere is air conditioned, the autos are made and the drivers are functioned to try and kill you, there are no such thing as traffic rules, the slums and poverty are a horrible reality straing you in the face and the noise! oh Lord the noise! its all mad! but its OK that its mad because - yeh hai mumbai meri jaan! anything goes here!


it also makes you realize how much i have. what so many people don't. living in a city like dubai you cant help but focus on what you don't. and that pulls you down a lot. so it was nice to look at it from there other side. i went to puna to check out these houses that were being built. they were still under construction. and the construction workers had their 'homes' behind the construction site and they lived there with their families. you could tell by appearance that these kids had close nothing. but they where running around a half built home playing house. there was a dad and a mom and a baby - the standard roles that all kids have when they play house. all the rules i had when i was a kid. only these kids had torn clothes, no shoes but a whole bunch of dreams - to own a home like that one day. and it made me realise, that though i hope and pray that they do own a home like that one day, there is an unfortunate probability that they may never. but i can. and that just makes you thank you stars!
also, it got me thinking as to how we go into work - and we hate our jobs! what we don't stop to think about is that some kids sell balloons on the street for a living. everyday. they sit on the street side, blow ballons and sell them. they come up to your car when it stops at a light, they knock at your window and see if you want to buy one. most of the time people look away. they wont even look at these kids, just look away.
looking at all this makes you just bow your head down and pray. pray for these kids and pray for forgiveness for ever whining.

also, i got to bond with some family that i haven't had the chance to. my cousin brother and his family. got close to my 16 year old niece. it was nice to hang out with her. though it did sort of make me wish i was in high school again, and not so grown up, with all these effin grown up responsibilities!

anyway, after all that insight being thrown at me, i have come home (and was happy to come back) refreshed! i know what i want now. i still have to figure out of a lot of stuff here and there, but i will. i know i will and i know everything will sort out - kyun ki, picture abhi baki hai mere dost! cheesy, i know. but i cant help it! i'm speaking fluent hinglish. but to sum it all up - i loved the trip. would i live there? probably not!
hey! don't judge me! i am a NRI brat and i cant help it!
but i am sure glad i made that trip. and i know i want to go back soon and maybe next time, see more of india. mera bharat mahan - remember?