Missing Mankato.

I miss...

Kakes's big hugs and sloppy kisses. Doha's laugh and high pitched girl scream. Waqas's guitar. Ambers gazillion pictures. Korrie's straight face when she would say we were twins. Pari's 'yea, I don't think so' looks. T's sensible responses to everything. Sachin's undrinkably hot coffee or tea or whatever - what is with that? Khumar's 'kareeeeeshma'. Maria's omg's and nasty's. Umair's dancing. Ali's high notes. Sarmad's "bc's". Jen and Liz'z red wine pasta. And so much more.

I could go on and on by saying, remember that time?...
but it would take too long.
Everyone I mentioned, some of you I was close to and some not really. Some I talk to and some - well I don't even know where they are.
But I just want to say that I am so happy I know you because you did bring nothing but happy memories.
And whenever I look back at my 5 years in Minnesota, you are who I think of.
Thank you for the best, worst and most craziest 5 years of my life.
In strange and different ways, I love you all.
Xx.

Michael Jackson - R.I.P

I can't beleive it. But everyone seems to assure me that it's true.

So all I want to say is -

Michael Jackson, you were and will always remain a legend. Thank you for all the memories.

Xx.

When life gives you lemons...

"When life gives you lemons, make grape juice.
Then sit back and watch the world try to figure out how you did it."

finally - a sensible answer!

So. A friend of mine and I were just talking, over facebook, about how many people we know are getting married or engaged or something, in this year to come. Well congratulations to them!

But it sucks for us. You know, the remainder of us. Us who are not even close to think that we might want to get engaged - let alone married.

Because living in the Indian society when you are a 24 year or older girl and not married - there can only be three explanations -
1) There is something wrong with you. This could mean appearance.
2) There is something wrong with you. Which basically means you are a lesbian.
3) There is something wrong with your history, hence no respectable Indian family would want their respectable son to marry you.

And I am sorry but screw that! I don't buy all of that. You don't need to get married just to prove all of the above wrong. Take your time. Build your career. Live your life and then marry because you want to. Because they are your best friend and you are ready for that next great adventure. Not because you are worried about what people will say about your family.

Now, strangely enough, quite a few modern day Indian kids feel the way I do. But they are still getting married left right and center. And that was when I sort of ran out of theories. And then the friend I was talking to, came up with a brilliant one. I really believe this.

Conclusive theory:
It's global warming. People are trying to pair up before the polar ice caps melt and we all drown.

Xx.

I saw the sign!

"The world bursts at the seams with people ready to tell you you're not good enough. On occasion, some may be correct. But do not do their work for them. Seek any job, ask anyone out; pursue any goal. Don't take it personally when they say "no" - they may not be smart enough to say "yes"." - Olbermann

Suche told me he found this on a Starbucks cup. a Starbucks cup!
And it's unbelievable that he told me he saw this just when I made some decisions.
Which means it is a sign.A good sign.

A sign telling me - 'you go girlfriend!'.
A sign telling me I need to be be bold in my decision making.
A sign telling me everybody has one life to make the most of. Well, at least, one life that you remember.

And I really think that these curve balls are thrown at you because the big guy up there is trying very hard to tell us something. Maybe He is trying to say that what we MAY think to be good for us, is not really all that. I have been told over and over again, that though I may think I am a HR person, maybe I am not in ways. Maybe God wants me to use all my 'creative' abilities.

So last night, through another sleepless night (these are starting to become a pain because I LOVE my sleep) - I decided that maybe I will be creative.And I will be bold. and I will switch fields and I will do well. And more than anything, I think I will be happy about it!

And I also figured, I know I got a degree and spent all the time and money and effort...well, OK, since we are being honest, time and money towards a degree but I can safely say, university changed my life. So,instead of taking ONLY lessons from a classroom into consideration, I paid for some life experiences that i would have never got, had i not gone to school at all! And those experiences play a huge part in helping, when you are taking on life.

Who would have thunk! A Starbucks cup did all of that!
I guess it is safe to say, little things can make a huge difference, si?

Ta. Xx.

New Moon.

So I am sure, everyone who read the last post must know I am going through a real hard time.
And I obviously have difficulty figuring shit out.
And my manners these days, lets just say I don't have any.
And neither am I very tolerant.
Put all that together and I am in a pretty rotten mood.

But this morning, I was up at 7 and thought I would check my mail over coffee. And obviously, nobody emailed me that early in the morning but MSN showed me something that just made my day and made me so much happier - it told me that the New Moon preview was out.
And I am SO HAPPY. Its a way of showing you that no matter how shitting things are, nice things keep happening.
Like Robert Pattinson - he happened to mankind right?

Anyway, I know alot of people are thinking 'what a looser, no wonder she has issues'.
But hell - it made my day.
So I am happy.
And I cant wait for November 20th.

Later peeps! Xx.

Stupid sayings.

You know how when shit hits the roof, everyone (everyone being the people who are NOT in your position and have absolutely NO fucking idea as to what is going through your brain) start saying these things to you.

Like - 'hey! shit is so bad now - it cant get any worse'
or - 'you'll be ok. i guarantee it'
or - 'this is good thing. it seriously only is what you make it to be'
or - 'things are this bad now because something better is on the way. something that you just cant see right now'
and the worst -
every cloud has a silver lining. what in the falangey is that supposed to even mean?

well - here is how it is. all clouds DO NOT have silver linings. things CAN get worse. and if not worse - they can stay bad for a frustratingly long time. and if something better were to happen - why the effin hell hasn't it happened already and when exactly does is plan to 'happen'?
answer that smart asses!

ok. now. INHALE. EXHALE.

i needed to vent. venting is good. i think everybody should try it.

right. well. i'm off.

later. Xx.