So - my brain is like a town that is constantly hit by a tornado.
I have named this tornado - Mr. Stupid.
The minute that town thinks the storm is over and foundations are made, Mr. Stupid shows up again, making it SO difficult to make any decisions what so ever.
So yesterday afternoon, I looked in the mirror - at my forehead and had a chat with that tornado that is hell bent on ruining my life.
I said 'hey! Mr. Stupid! FUCK YOU! I AM going to make decisions! Big decisions! Yea, and not only decisions, I am going to give myself OPTIONS! And feasible, happenable options. HA!'
In response that tornado said 'Yea right! And...fuck you back!'.
Anyway - I ignored Mr. Stupid. Well for the sole reason that he is stupid.
And I made decisions.
And I am acting on them.
Starting today - because its prep day.
Tomorrow is the 1st of October. The outcome of all this decision making shall be reviewed again - on December 1st. Exactly 2 months.
And then what happens? - You are going to have to wait to find out depending on how I have done!
Decision #1
This is an old one.
So old and used and blah that I can imagine the amount of eye rolls this one will earn.
Weight loss. *eye roll*
Now, I know I have said this before. But this time I am going to do it. Because Mr. Stupid is NOT going to mess with me and make me change my mind. I am re-starting the whole regime I was on 2 years ago when I lost all that weight. I'm off carbs will the 1st of December. I will keep blogging the progress of that week after week.
Just because, you know...you would like to have a laugh!
Decision #2
This is SORT of linked to the 1st decision. Now that I have said no carbs, its NOT REALLY no carbs. Because as much as I want to say I don't want to drink at all, that would be a lie! A big fat stupid one. A slightly more stupid one that Mr. Stupid! And since I have been told this over and over by different people, there is going to be ONE standard drink that I drink - lowest on carbs and calories apparently...Vodka-soda-limes (yuck) and no more beer (SOB!).
Decision #3
This pitiful being jobless situation. I am SO SICK of people telling me 'look at the world, this is a global thing, its not only you, change your field, you can do SO MANY THINGS while you don't have a job, look to the stars and the effin silver linings...'. You get the gist right? So again, I have given myself -till November to get a job. Once that doesn't happen, the back up plan kicks in. What is the back up plan? - Well that I'm not a 100% sure of yet, but I'll let you know once it is figured out.
Decision #4
Do what I want to do - when I want to do it. If there is something I want to be, then that is what I will be. If there is some music I want to listen to - I will listen to it. If there is something I want to wear, I will wear it and if there is some place I want to go - I will go. Nobody is going to change my mind.
Decision #5
No matter WHAT happens, what other life altering decisions I make, I am going to plan the WHOLE month of December around one thing - the Backstreet Boys concert. Yes people, they are playing in Dubai in December.
Now for all of you who are all on about 'Oh for the love of all that's holy' and all that, its about time you admitted to yourself - they are awesome.
Also, I have been waiting to go to a concert of theirs since I was 10 years old. They are coming here and there is noway I am going to miss it!
So there - I feel...pretty OK, which is awesome improvement from, the 'pretty shit' level I was at earlier. Not only have I made 5 decisions, I might also get to see the backstreet boys live (given they don't cancel) and Mr. Stupid has been fired!
Tada!
Xx
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