undefined: the trip

there is so much i would like to blog about in regards to the trip. i know i planned to write this whole detailed entry about EVERYTHING - and i mean everything. bit i really cant.

because as it turns out - this trip was a bit of an eye opener which is awesome. i loved it. it made me realize so much about myself. alot of what i was questioning - i found answers.
- i realized i miss my parents when they are not around.
when i was at the flower market, all i thought about was mom and how that would be her definition of heaven. and how evenever i heard a street side musician or a outdoor cafe playing local music, i thought of dad. and how he would immediately think of a hindi song that sounds just like it - and sing it. right there and then. and constantly poke you till you acknowledge the singing.
i know i complain sometimes, about living with them, and how that can be difficult because there is no 100% freedom. but deep down inside i have realized, that really shouldnt be such a big deal. and its not. all you have to do is be honest with them.
- i realized i want to give my sister one of her big long hugs - that i usually cringe away from. and get one of her disgustingly, sloppy kisses. europe just had her name written all over it for me. i remember when she went to europe, she couldnt stop talking about the 'cobbled streets'. initially, i liked listening about it. but then, it got so bloody old - i wanted her to stop talking about it. but now i understand. because i cant stop talking about them.
- i realized just how much love my friends. they are my lifeline. i was scared that we were going to get on each others nerves after spending so much time togehter. we probably did. but at the end of the day - we all knew, deep down inside, we wouldnt have gone on this trip with any other people. well - other than disha. she really should have been there. nancy's sleepy face, nadia's laugh and disha's blunt responses to everything - i really, truly, could not live without all that.
- andrew. i missed him. more than i planned. did that scare me? sure. but thats what made recieveing the phone calls and text messages even better. its nice to know for sure what you are really feeling for someone - and that they care in return.
- i realized that sachin had a part to play in me going on this trip to begin with. (your turn to go "awww" su-che). because he was one of the first people i told about this trip. and he was the first people who said 'find a way and go. you HAVE to go'.
there was no sarcastic 'yea right - we will see when it happens' or negativity. but just a 'you have to go'. thanks su-che.
- i now know, that i dont want to stay in dubai forever. or even for very long. just the next couple of years. there is nothing cultural or artsy fartsy to do here at all. no local music scene, no dancers on the street, no art, no history. just people who want to go, listen to dj and dance (getting drunk in teh process). however, it is a good place to make some money. i mean, lets face the facts. if i was in the states, i would never have been able to afford the car i have, or take this trip. materialistic i know- but sataisfying! this is going to help me plan better.

8 days out of dubai. 8 days of good food, good beer, an occasional joint and immense amouts of fun and i realized so much. so all i have to say is i miss it. only 8 days and i miss it.