A dejavu-ic goodbye!

So the night is finally here. I have said all my good-byes. This has been a roller coaster. I need to sleep and sleep is far, far away. This is what I want. I have been so excited about this. But tonight it's different. I realised there is a HUGE difference between this time and last. This time I'm older and things won't be the same when and if I do come back. There are going to be some huge changes. It's also harder because all relationships I have from the past and made here are stronger which makes this process so difficult.

To mom and dad - the best parents anyone could ever ask for. I can not even begin to explain how much I am going to miss you. I am so glad I am so much closer to you and I love you with all my heart! I'm not even in the states yet and I can't wait for you to come visit!
To naeem - my strong voice of reason and calm after every storm. I love you so very much.
To prtiz - my akka when I am away from my akka. For being the only one who didn't break even once and kept telling me this is going to be awesome! Love, love you!
To connel, bharat, love and vismay - for all the mental, fabulous nights. Here is hoping you guys do fan-effin-tabulous in whatever you do! And call me when you'll are around the area! Going to miss you'll and the madness tons!
To ashraf and muna - for just always being there. No matter who comes and goes, you'll are seriously always there!
To naomi - for all the 8 hour conversations, love, care and support. You have helped me pull through SO much without even knowing it! Am going to miss you hun! Xx
And finally to my girls - for all the good times and bad, for all the awesome nights and the not-so-awesome sick sessions after, for the all concerts, trips, dancing, singing, laughing, eating, screaming, listening, movies, drives, pictures...and the list shall go on again. This move is especially hard on us because it has made us realise - everything is changing. So this song dedication is especially for us, and for me - because I know I want this - but I should be allowed some hesitation. I may not like it here but God knows there are some very important people I will be leaving tomorrow!
And as usual, John helps me say what I need to say!

Stop this train

No I'm not color blind
I know the world is black and white
Try to keep an open mind but...
I just can't sleep on this tonight
Stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly won't someone stop this train

Don't know how else to say it, don't want to see my parents go
One generation's length away
From fighting life out on my own

Stop this train
I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't but honestly won't someone stop this train

So scared of getting older
I'm only good at being young
So I play the numbers game to find away to say that life has just begun
Had a talk with my old man
Said help me understand
He said turn 68, you'll renegotiate
Don't stop this train
Don't for a minute change the place you're in
Don't think I couldn't ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we'll never stop this train

See once in a while when it's good
It'll feel like it should
And they're all still around
And you're still safe and sound
And you don't miss a thing
'til you cry when you're driving away in the dark.

Singing stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can't take this speed it's moving in
I know I can't
Cause now I see I'll never stop this train


And with that I will say - goodbye everybody! Just know, I would never have made it through these years here if it were not for each and everyone of you. Xx

Backstreets Back - Alright!

I always knew I wanted to watch the Backstreet Boys live. And somewhere, deep down inside, I knew I would. I just didn't think that I would in Dubai. But I did watch them in Dubai last night. And they were amazing. I can not explain how happy I am now. So, so happy. I have been a fan since I was 10. And I remember buying the first album on tape - and listening to it over and over again and FINALLY - having to buy a new one because the old one refused to play anymore!As for the concert - it was one of the best I have been to! They were SO entertaining, they sounded SO GOOD, the dancing was good, high-high energy and they really got the crowd going. And they sang all their classics too - and made me feel like I was 14 again...
This really was a SUPER ending to a pretty shit year. If only they knew how happy they made me. And Nick Carter - you really are so beautiful - and I love you (blush).
Backstreet's SO back!

P.S. - I will admit to getting a little cry-y when they were singing ' I want it that way' ...because I knew the concert was ending and I still couldn't believe I just watched them live.

Bliss-ness!

An awesome evening out =
Me. Naeem. My guitar. His I-phone and its voice recorder option. The sidewalk of the parking lot next to home. Awesome Dubai winter breeze. Impromptu jam session. Unreal quality of recorded jam session. Post singing conversation recordings.

Ah! Bliss. Xx

Boy, oh boy!

So I have learnt the hard way - designer bags are addictive. Hard way because, I have one and I want about 2-3 more AT LEAST to stop me from going nuts. And let's not start with the shoe issue! I mean - seriously, why do they make shoes so beautiful? And I know I have gone crazy because I was staring at a pair of purple suede's for like at least 10 minutes. I couldn't afford them - and so I didn't buy them. But who in their right mind just stares at a pair of shoes? And boots - I need two new pairs, one black and on brown, essentials mind you! And wherever I go - I hear them calling my name. It is INSANE. When did I get this materialistic? OK fine, I have always been materialistic, but when did it get this bad? SO bad, that I am actually dreaming about things like shoes and bags! And people thought smoking was an issue! RIGHT! I need help! Xx

Twitter-ness!

So, I am finally twitter-ing. If that is what you would call the process of using twitter.
Verdict so far - still trying to figure out what the point of it is however, I can see how it is addictive.

Anyway, I am now 'following' John Mayer on there. It's nice knowing his random thoughts. It makes me feel like I know him - sort of. And I bet if he is reading thing - he is freaking out a little. Don't worry John, I'm not a crazy stalker. I just think you are fan-effin-tabulous.
And for everyone else reading it - I bet you'll are a little worried that I am going to turn into a crazy stalker - but relax. I won't.

Anyway, here's hoping the future brings about lots of little and big tweets!

Xx