A dejavu-ic goodbye!

So the night is finally here. I have said all my good-byes. This has been a roller coaster. I need to sleep and sleep is far, far away. This is what I want. I have been so excited about this. But tonight it's different. I realised there is a HUGE difference between this time and last. This time I'm older and things won't be the same when and if I do come back. There are going to be some huge changes. It's also harder because all relationships I have from the past and made here are stronger which makes this process so difficult.

To mom and dad - the best parents anyone could ever ask for. I can not even begin to explain how much I am going to miss you. I am so glad I am so much closer to you and I love you with all my heart! I'm not even in the states yet and I can't wait for you to come visit!
To naeem - my strong voice of reason and calm after every storm. I love you so very much.
To prtiz - my akka when I am away from my akka. For being the only one who didn't break even once and kept telling me this is going to be awesome! Love, love you!
To connel, bharat, love and vismay - for all the mental, fabulous nights. Here is hoping you guys do fan-effin-tabulous in whatever you do! And call me when you'll are around the area! Going to miss you'll and the madness tons!
To ashraf and muna - for just always being there. No matter who comes and goes, you'll are seriously always there!
To naomi - for all the 8 hour conversations, love, care and support. You have helped me pull through SO much without even knowing it! Am going to miss you hun! Xx
And finally to my girls - for all the good times and bad, for all the awesome nights and the not-so-awesome sick sessions after, for the all concerts, trips, dancing, singing, laughing, eating, screaming, listening, movies, drives, pictures...and the list shall go on again. This move is especially hard on us because it has made us realise - everything is changing. So this song dedication is especially for us, and for me - because I know I want this - but I should be allowed some hesitation. I may not like it here but God knows there are some very important people I will be leaving tomorrow!
And as usual, John helps me say what I need to say!

Stop this train

No I'm not color blind
I know the world is black and white
Try to keep an open mind but...
I just can't sleep on this tonight
Stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly won't someone stop this train

Don't know how else to say it, don't want to see my parents go
One generation's length away
From fighting life out on my own

Stop this train
I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't but honestly won't someone stop this train

So scared of getting older
I'm only good at being young
So I play the numbers game to find away to say that life has just begun
Had a talk with my old man
Said help me understand
He said turn 68, you'll renegotiate
Don't stop this train
Don't for a minute change the place you're in
Don't think I couldn't ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we'll never stop this train

See once in a while when it's good
It'll feel like it should
And they're all still around
And you're still safe and sound
And you don't miss a thing
'til you cry when you're driving away in the dark.

Singing stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can't take this speed it's moving in
I know I can't
Cause now I see I'll never stop this train


And with that I will say - goodbye everybody! Just know, I would never have made it through these years here if it were not for each and everyone of you. Xx