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So it has been a long while since I have had to write a paper for a class. Just about 3 years really. And I can safely say that it is going to take me just about 2 hours (including this blog break) to write a two page paper - double spaced! And that's just first draft!

AND, to top it all, I am scared of what the outcome is going to be - like, I don't know if whatever I have written, is what I am supposed to writing. Do I need to use bigger words or is just stating your point as simply as possible good enough? And the fact that I don't really have experience in the education industry and more or less everything I am going to say is going to be an opinion - is that a horribly bad thing that is going to get graded real bad? And paraphrasing and plagiarism - let's not even go there. Let's just say I am going to have sleepless nights till this paper is submitted and I get it back and I have NOT had a horrible grade on it, or a comment that states I should probably go back to 3rd grade OR, a letter stating I should go visit student services for plagiarism!

Is this whole situation sad? I mean, for the love of God, I am 25 years old! I can and should NOT be worrying about a 2 page paper! It should just be something that I should be able to whip up - no problem!

OK. This just seem a little sad to me. Bloody hell!

Life is good...

And it sure has been a while!

I can't explain how grateful I am for each day I wake up. It's like God and life have given me a second chance. Maybe I can live my dream. But before all that wisdomess stuff - I will have to get by the next 2 years.

And boy is it going to be an adventure or what?

Just a brief recap before I go any further. I was in the states a while ago, the job thing didn't work out after graduation so I had to go back home. The move was fine, for a little while, and I loved the people there and I was pulling through! Then the property market hit - and then I lost my job and was one of the MOST miserable mofo's around. Then one day, in a second, just like that, I decided I wanted to back to the states, and go back to school or do something. Just something. Not sit on my ass and do nothing. Go out and live my dreams, and all that wisdomess stuff! So I figured, most schools, deadlines were going to be done in 2 days. (Yes, it took me that long to decide to do this). I had ONE choice as a backup plan - MSU, Mankato. So I applied, for a Leadership program, got accepted, got my visa on a first try (that part I was really worried about), packed my bags, said heartbreaking goodbyes for the second time, sat on the plane and left.

And then I land in Minneapolis, a very nice man helps me get all bags on a big trolley, and I step out of the airport. It was freezing. Luckily I had dressed the part. While I was waiting for my sister, smoking a quick ciggy, and doing my dance that I do to stay warm (yes, I multi-task), I realized something. Sure, I left home, but I was home.

Anyway, I move in with my sister for a couple of days and we bond instantly. It had been a rough ride for us. Thanks to some unfortunate excuses of human beings in our lives, we had drifted apart. And now that all just seemed so old and ages ago. We had both grown up in the time we were apart and that distance and space taught us something. Siblings are always going to be there for each other. No matter what. However, there is no harm in there being a little bit of distance between us. So before I moved to Mankato - we made a wise decision, we were not going to live together. So I signed up to move to a place near campus while she was going to stay where she was in North Mankato.

On the first day back, I got to meet Aaron as well. And what can I say? He is amazing. And its a relief. Its weird not really knowing the man your sister is going to marry. Nobody can understand it unless they are in this position and sometimes I think that is why I came here. So that I wouldn't have to go through this whole issue of not knowing him. And hey, maybe I can convince to teach me how to dance in the process!

After the first week back it was time to move to my own place. And I did! Its an awesome 4 bedroom town house. I have two room mates, Kari and Bri. Both are so incredibly awesome - I can't explain! I was secretly so worried about having to move in with two people I never knew. And now, we laugh at all that. It has been a super experience getting to know them and I really love coming 'home' when I'm done with a long day of school.

And what I have realized through this whole experience is that even if I know it or not, I have grown up. In strange little ways! I am not rushing myself to meet people and make friends. I have learnt that things like that just happen! Also, it was so great re-connecting with the few friends that are left in Minnesota. I also feel so much at peace! I love Thursday nights especially! My weekend starts then. And don't get me wrong, I have a TON to read and papers to write, even over the weekend but, I love just coming home, eating something and then just going up to my room, listening to some light music and reading a book for pleasure!

I thank God a million times over. Let's just hope it stays this way!

And as Mr. Mraz says - hold your own, know your name and go your own way...and everything will be fine.

And now, even though Pandora is making me feel otherwise with its AMAZING playlist, I have to hit the sack! Got tons to read and a paper to finish tomorrow! 'NIght peeps! Xx

Getting older...

Maybe, just maybe, if I don't think about it, it won't happen. The horrible thing that's going to happen this coming Monday.

I'm turning 25.

I am going to be quarter of a century old.

And I don't feel like I have accomplished too much. I mean, quarter of a century is a bloody long time, right? People have made their millions by now. And along with making their millions, they have gotten married and had babies. I definitely don't have my millions and am definitely not married or have any babies!

Maybe I should get a pet...something I won't kill easily!
OR...maybe if I don't think about it, it won't happen!