I can't explain how grateful I am for each day I wake up. It's like God and life have given me a second chance. Maybe I can live my dream. But before all that wisdomess stuff - I will have to get by the next 2 years.
And boy is it going to be an adventure or what?
Just a brief recap before I go any further. I was in the states a while ago, the job thing didn't work out after graduation so I had to go back home. The move was fine, for a little while, and I loved the people there and I was pulling through! Then the property market hit - and then I lost my job and was one of the MOST miserable mofo's around. Then one day, in a second, just like that, I decided I wanted to back to the states, and go back to school or do something. Just something. Not sit on my ass and do nothing. Go out and live my dreams, and all that wisdomess stuff! So I figured, most schools, deadlines were going to be done in 2 days. (Yes, it took me that long to decide to do this). I had ONE choice as a backup plan - MSU, Mankato. So I applied, for a Leadership program, got accepted, got my visa on a first try (that part I was really worried about), packed my bags, said heartbreaking goodbyes for the second time, sat on the plane and left.
And then I land in Minneapolis, a very nice man helps me get all bags on a big trolley, and I step out of the airport. It was freezing. Luckily I had dressed the part. While I was waiting for my sister, smoking a quick ciggy, and doing my dance that I do to stay warm (yes, I multi-task), I realized something. Sure, I left home, but I was home.
Anyway, I move in with my sister for a couple of days and we bond instantly. It had been a rough ride for us. Thanks to some unfortunate excuses of human beings in our lives, we had drifted apart. And now that all just seemed so old and ages ago. We had both grown up in the time we were apart and that distance and space taught us something. Siblings are always going to be there for each other. No matter what. However, there is no harm in there being a little bit of distance between us. So before I moved to Mankato - we made a wise decision, we were not going to live together. So I signed up to move to a place near campus while she was going to stay where she was in North Mankato.
On the first day back, I got to meet Aaron as well. And what can I say? He is amazing. And its a relief. Its weird not really knowing the man your sister is going to marry. Nobody can understand it unless they are in this position and sometimes I think that is why I came here. So that I wouldn't have to go through this whole issue of not knowing him. And hey, maybe I can convince to teach me how to dance in the process!
After the first week back it was time to move to my own place. And I did! Its an awesome 4 bedroom town house. I have two room mates, Kari and Bri. Both are so incredibly awesome - I can't explain! I was secretly so worried about having to move in with two people I never knew. And now, we laugh at all that. It has been a super experience getting to know them and I really love coming 'home' when I'm done with a long day of school.
And what I have realized through this whole experience is that even if I know it or not, I have grown up. In strange little ways! I am not rushing myself to meet people and make friends. I have learnt that things like that just happen! Also, it was so great re-connecting with the few friends that are left in Minnesota. I also feel so much at peace! I love Thursday nights especially! My weekend starts then. And don't get me wrong, I have a TON to read and papers to write, even over the weekend but, I love just coming home, eating something and then just going up to my room, listening to some light music and reading a book for pleasure!
I thank God a million times over. Let's just hope it stays this way!
And as Mr. Mraz says - hold your own, know your name and go your own way...and everything will be fine.
And now, even though Pandora is making me feel otherwise with its AMAZING playlist, I have to hit the sack! Got tons to read and a paper to finish tomorrow! 'NIght peeps! Xx
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